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let me dress. My sisters all got a big kick out of it and thought I was adorable, but unfortunately Carol's husband thought it was a disgrace and reprimanded my mother severely. Mother then made me change and wanted me to discontinue it immediately. I was able to compromise and Mother agreed to let me finish up the summer as a girl (no week-ends) but on our return to the city, it was to be completely discontinued. I had a most enjoyable summer and dreaded its termination and my return to the city.

I confided my feelings to my Aunt and she told me I can keep my girl's things at her apartment and any time I came there I could dress up. She had an apartment just a couple of blocks from our house, so this was perfect. When we re- turned to the city and I started back to school, I discour- aged further association with my former boy friends as I had more important plans. Every day after school I would go to my Aunt's apartment and change. I would generally walk over

to Gloria's (my friendsfrom the shore) where I was welcome and over the next few months we became very close girl friends. My Aunt gave me the name of Anita and I used her last name as minė (Stewart) in order to have an address and telephone num- ber. I would spend week ends at my Aunt's and, through Gloria was invited to parties and met and became friends with other girls. I had problems in school, as some of the kids I met as a girl on the outside attended the same school, and, I feel sure noted the resemblance. I ignored everybody and with. Gloria keeping my secret I felt safe. As a girl I was very friendly with everybody, and claimed attendance at a differ- ent school. I was beginning to feel out of place when I wore boy's clothes and, it was brought to my attention I was be- ginning to act effeminate. This, of course, was a result of my walking, sitting, and acting differently when a girl but I told myself I didn't care. My family knew why I was spending so much time at my Aunt's but didn't mention any- thing to me, On Saturday mornings my Aunt and I would go into town--shop, eat lunch, see a movie and return. Then one Saturday morning we were joined by my Mother and one of my sisters and, thereafter, it became a regular procedure. A Saturday didn't pass when I didn't return with some new clothes